August 2011
1 post
come on, im gg to be stronger than that.
why waste my time on assholes like you who think that just because you’re older, everything that you say goes?
2011. in one year you’ve inflicted more emotional trauma on me than anyone has ever done for 21 years. i thank you for that.
because one day i’ll emerge stronger.
July 2011
1 post
you’re so awkward in that way of yours, you got me.
June 2011
7 posts
for once, I would like to be the one who receives free hugs instead of giving them out all the time. you can never be superman for too far. and it’s been far too long.
being worried sick doesn really help but i can’t help wishing that time will pass faster and that the results will be released earlier with good news.
it may be selfish thinking, but 2 years can make all the difference in the world.
for now, nothing I can do but wait with fingers crossed that the wish I made on my 21st will come true.
hi god, I’m not asking for too much am I?
today just feels like one of those days where everyone should shut up and leave me alone.
just a random thought. the only time I tell anyone “I kinda expected it anyway” is when I’ve been disappointed by the person so many times i’ve come to expect it.
I guess times like this made me realize that despite the 1937025010276301 people who’ve repeatedly disappointed you, there will always be the few to catch you when you fall or to lend a listening ear. For that, I’m very grateful. You guys know who you are <3
disappointments after disappointments from loved ones and close friends countless number of times since the year started. believe me I’ve had enough. so much so I dont even want to trust or believe in anyone or anything anymore. at least it’s alot less painful when I disappoint myself.
okay wtf this time i’ve had enough. always the same problem which I’m so sick of. don’t blame me for loosing trust in people.
May 2011
3 posts
hey baby, i think i wna marry you.
as much as im not ready to be in a r/s with ANYONE at the moment (yes, im not interested in being tied down so early and have to report to anyone about my whereabouts every freaking moment of the day),
I like you.
there i said it.
but hey, it’s never a 2-way thing so *sigh*.
okay you know what? fuck you.
April 2011
1 post
okay I’m trying not to be a critical bitch but ever wondered how it’s always the same people who have to let the world know about their illnesses? or for that matter, a member of THAT family’s illness? It’s not like other people’s families don’t have their own sick who need prayers.
and if you don’t tell anyone about your family member’s illness,...
March 2011
76 posts
know what i feel like doing? i feel like having a good cry and forgetting about everything, anything and everyone else. fts seriously.
i think i just reached the peak of my emotional levels this morning and the fked up jam didn help one bit.
know what i feel like doing? i feel like having a good cry and forgetting about everything, anything and everyone else. fts seriously.
i think i just reached the peak of my emotional levels this morning and the fked up jam didn help one bit.
know what i feel like doing? i feel like having a good cry and forgetting about everything, anything and everyone else. fts seriously.
i think i just reached the peak of my emotional levels this morning and the fked up jam didn help one bit.
words arnt fucking retractable. if you dont know the entire facts, think before you speak. and dont fucking engage in name-calling and finger-pointing.
they said words kill, so damn fucking true.
i dont put on a false front.
im perfectly fine.
but somethings you cant forget overnight. especially when you were very badly affected by it.
dont expect miracles, i cant forget so easily. not when i was so damn fucking hurt by it.
chris medina’s what are words never fails to make me cry.
it’s so touching. i dont care if some people say he’s tapping on her state to gain fame because staying behind to care for the one you love despite their condition is beyond being loving. to stay or to run, it’s a personal choice and how many would actually stay?
i always knew i was good at ignoring people. but just this once, it seems really hard.
sighh. :(
Time
Time has its natural healing effects.
In good time, all will be forgotten. :)
“for all those times you stood by me,
for all the truth that you made me see,
for...”
– Celine Dion
Life Lesson
today, i learnt how much my heart can hurt. it’s a feeling so indescribable.
maybe that’s why im learning about language and how we lack sufficient descriptions for everything in the world.
then again, my buddy thinks it’s one of life’s many lessons so maybe that’s why it hurts.
thank you my lovelies who have been listening to me rant for the past few years.
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